history repeat

again, getting hurt again, from the same group of creatures, the 'gossiping' creatures.

the creature that i think i respect the most and trust the most, perhaps rely the most on, betrayed me. =(

"treat it as a song when others r talking ill of u, cause v cant control their mouth, v cant shut their mouth up when they choose not to seal their big mouth." However, saying is better than acting.

i confess that im taking very serious about how ppl think of me. im trying to be the best, though im not. im trying to make everything perfect in my life, i wanna leave no regret in my life, not even a breach.

but it is not good to b the best. feeling good when someone flatters u, u will feel tat your hard work paid off. but feeling terribly worst when the same-someone talks ill of u, exaggerating the facts and voicing it to everyone.

SIGH~ i tot 'that' would b the history but now 'that' was a history. just bear in mind, secret will not long bear the name of SECRET, after you expose it to one.  

a whole NEW year

' 3....2....1... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!'

following a DIFFERENT time zone, im ushering the 2010!!!

today is the beginning of my new year. started to wrapped up every pasts n heading to the future, perhaps the better.

the last futsal game, before sem break ends. i have to get myself ready, ready to study, ready to work hard, n don 4get to play hard =)

im not going to spend this sem wholly in my studies like wat i did in last sem. this sem will b a better sem, a grrrreat sem.

get rid of all the bad habits, pick up the good habits and work on it.

thanks much to my primary classmates, you all are always the best =) it dawned on me tat friendship will b there forever even though we hav lost touch for an ages. and friends is always the best among the best.

this is an amazing vacation. gym, badminton, futsal, swimming.. i wonder if im hyperactive, ha. going for so many sports daily in these few weeks n never get bored of it. im even asking for more.

But, it's time to stop. time to pick up my studies n focus on it.

im going to miss the moment playing games with u all crazily once i get bac to subang. looking for someone to play sport wif me n even give me a ride in subang is as hard as waiting for a rain in the drought. public transport is the only solution, which i detest the most but cant reject it.

tonight is gonna b a good night. few more days to spend in Ipoh. sigh~

2010- a turning year

looking forward to the GRAND new year, 2010!!

would it b a NEW year for me? a new year for me to forget every pasts and only focus in 2010? no doubts, i have to..

no regrets.. stick to the current plan n go ahead.. i will b fine, no worries..

it saddened me on seeing the declaration tat i'v made in 2009. the goals tat i listed down in the letter, were not attained..

instead, i choose the other paths. and im pretty sure im doing the right choice this time, with no regrets. never ever.

when others r busy doing their application essay n rushing for the regular decision application, i was in the gym, in badminton court, futsal court o mayb swimming pool. i strike upenn off my list. perhaps 1+4.

anyway, i will do better in 2010. let's get started to fight on!!!

100 bucket lists

going to rewrite my 100 bucket lists..

keeping to my pace..

and working on my goals..

during this sem break..

make the changes..

create a wonderful life for myself..

Weekends^^

hooray, my weekend should b like this, enjoying with friends, hanging out wif friends, chatting with old buddies.. it had been an ages i din really enjoy my weekend so much..

thanks much to my old buddies.. treat me such a good+high-classed breakfast, lol.. it's superb nice.. Dragon-i restaurant rocks!!

damn miss the volleyball teammates.. the time v spent together was so wonderful.. time tat was out of academic stuffs, time tat was really having FUN.. time with sweating, scaring, and nervousing.. love you guys, my volleyball friends^^

but, i hate to walk around in KL. thanks to the idiotic bus driver on friday.. he bluffed us and dropped us at the anonymous roadside.. v got no ideas where to go and how to go bac to subang.. the only way to do is keep walking.. at least v try to find out, instead of standing still there..

imagine the feeling of walking at the side of mainroad.. it's so scary and dangerous.. amidst in the speeding car and the annoying hons..

thank god, v arrived at the AMCORP mall, and ended up with buying many books at the book fair there. In the bookfair, u could hardly find a rm20 book.. every book is rm8 to rm15.. wat a 'reasonable' price is tat.. well, i did not buy many books actually cause i couldn't find the book tat i'v been looking for..

imagine experiencing the feeling of lost twice in a day.. it's so insecure. but wat 2 do..  the only way i can do is pressing numbers and asked for directions, not picking me up.. i'v my own transport; my leg.. feeling compassion to my leg, it had been walking too much these few days..

lost in petaling jaya, lost in ss14 at 9pm.. the surrounding is so dark and silent..

seriously, i x like kl.. i x like the transport here.. i'v to walk all the time -.-

vacation commenced, toefl coming soon, no more SAT in my life, but somehow, i feel tat my life is getting more hectic than b4...

really tired..

before final

waiting for the coming calculus test which starts at 2pm soon..
feeling helpless..
got no ideas what to do but wait for the time..
feeling guilty for not putting much efforts at the eleventh minutes of the calculus test..
but, i'v gone through almost all the questions, should b alright, right? hoped so..

after this test, i hav to reconsider my direction and amend my new resolutions and goals..

1+4?? said no to it!!

face it!

today is not a good day. though i tot it should b..
last day of ADP life.. ended with sth bad.
feeling remorseful, sad..
i shouldn't do tat, y cant i face my shortcomings?
FACE it, OVERCOME it, LEARN it!
it's the process of life..

enjoy the life, enjoy the process.
follow yr pace, don rush.
everything will get well....

there are many thing bsides study.
academic is not everything.
i know i'v to face it.

dare to make mistakes, encounter it, challenge it..

i know i can do tat.
be confident....

everything will be fine, soon.